4 weeks post op

Today is 4 weeks since my surgery; I have lost 30 lbs!!!! Only 80 lbs to go to hit my goal weight!

I went with my little sister on Saturday to watch her try on wedding dresses. She is getting married in July on the beach in Oregon and I am the maid of honor (or matron I guess). She has the most beautiful hour glass figure (even though she thinks she has big hips) and it was so much fun to watch her try on those beautiful dresses. I know that I will never be that small nor will I have her figure (unless I pay LOTS of money to have myself nipped and tucked into a body like that) but just watching her makes me excited to lose more weight so I can try on and find a beautiful dress for me to wear to her wedding. Because I am continuing to lose weight I will not be able to try on dresses until closer to the big day. I need to tone up my "flabby" arms too since it looks like I'll be wearing a sleeveless dress! I may need to look into a personal trainer before too long so I can start getting things toned up!

I am struggling to get my daily walking in. I did it on Saturday afternoon after having missed Thursday and Friday, but I spent Sunday running errands and grocery shopping so I didn't get it done (although grocery shopping was a long, long ordeal with lots of walking around the store). I had every intention of getting up early this morning and doing it but when that alarm goes off at 4:30 am...it's all I can do to hit snooze for another hour or so! The stupid thing is I actually feel better and have more energy when I do get up early and get my walking done...it's also one less thing to stress about all day long so I don't know why I don't drag my tired self out of bed in the morning and get it done! Tomorrow is a new day...I'll try again! Maybe I'll go to bed at 8:00 pm tonight! LOL :0)

We attended my sister-in-laws birthday party last Thursday...that was a little bit hard. They had Pizza and I had planned on eating my own dinner before we went over but I didnt' have enought time (hectic!!). So I ate some of the toppings off the pizza (meat, chesse, veggies, etc.) since I can't have the crust part. Not the healthiest meal I've had since surgery but it was ok and I kept it down. (WLS patients have a fear of throwing up new foods or the "wrong" foods). For me, the "sweets" lover, the cake and ice cream was the hardest part...I couldn't have any of it! So I kept busy playing with the kids and even tried playing Guitar Hero, which was alot of fun. My kids have that game but I NEVER play video games! Anyway, on our way out the door as I walked past the cake I stuck my finger in the frosting, licked my finger and away I went! I figured a little taste was better than me "jonesing" all night over not being able to have any cake and frosting!!!

I have found a few "treats" that I can have on a limited basis. I found some sugar free frozen fruit bars that are 30 calories and when I really get a hankerin' for something sweet I'll have one of those. I also found some sugar free pudding but it's like 80 calories so I won't indulge in that one very often. Snacking was one of the ways I got fat in the first place so I don't want to get back into those types of habits!

FOOD is FUEL!!!!