I have had this nasty cold FOREVER and poor Tessa caught it this week. She missed school on Monday & I missed work. I kept her home again on Thursday and worked from home. I am working from home again today because her cough is so awful...she just doesn't feel good.
This is her in the bathtub yesterday...look at those poor little sad eyes...I hate it when my kids are sick...it breaks my heart to hear her deep hacking cough! She is a trooper and she gets so bored sitting at home especially cause I am at the computer all day and taking phone calls. She watches movies and comes into the kitchen where I am working and sits on my lap for a bit. She really wants to play...it's hard to keep her down! She told me yesterday "Mom, I hate being sick...it's stupid"! Amen sista! She actually looks better than she did a few days ago...at the beginning of the week her eyes were extremely red. I wondered if she had Pink Eye but I think it was just sinus stuff.
This is me yesterday sitting at the comuter working...it's rare that I will post a picture of myself with no make up and hair not done...do I look tired? I have honestly had this cold on and off for 4 months...the past 2 weeks it has been RAGING! The night before Tessa had slept fitfully (in my bed for the first time in 2 weeks cause Rio was out of town) so I did not get much rest that night...as this picture clearly shows...and the lack of makeup does not help! Yes...I am vain, always have been, always will be...even when I was heavy (especially when I was heavy) I would never allow pictures of me unless I had my hair and makeup done and even then it was rare!
This is Tyler and his date (can't remember her name; she asked him to the dance) to Sweethears on Valentines Day. Apparently they had fun and he was actually home by the curfew we gave him so that was good. Tyler got a job as a DJ recently and worked his first party the night before the dance. He has another one tonight...wonder where he gets that "love of music" gene...it's amazing to me that he can (somewhat) take after someone he hasn't spent much time with but I guess genes count for something.
This is Colton a few weeks ago at my mom's (early) b-day party that we had before she went back to SG. He didn't have time to "straighten" his hair (which he has been doing for quite a few months now) so he opted to wear his hood all day...not sure why cause his hair looks fine even when it's not straight! I don't often get good pictures of the boys...they hate having their picture taken for some reason and are usually pulling a stupid face or turning away before I can get the picture.
Things are a little tense & uncomfortable around our house lately. We have never been good about discipline and now that we have decided to make some changes around here sticking to it is very hard for me. The boys have been grounded for a few weeks although we have slipped up and allowed them some freedoms they haven't earned (we always do...hence the repeated bad behavior). They mope around and constantly ask to be able to go here or there...telling them NO is very difficult for me...I have always had an issue with people being angry with me...especially my kids. The boys have spent alot of time in their rooms sleeping...amazing how they are always still tired.
I love my kids so much...being a parent is the HARDEST thing I have ever done...maybe I make it too difficult. I guess we do the best we can and learn along the way. Are we doing the right thing now by trying to make changes at the ages that they are...I don't know...I ask myself that question every day. Because we have been so inconsistent it doesn't seem to be making any difference at this point and that worries me tremendously. The kids of course have no idea that this is harder on us than it is on them...hopefully someday they will understand that we do what we do because we love them...not because we want to have all the power and "control" them.
Well...it's the weekend...enjoy!
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