Attitude Adjustment...

-99 lbs lost, 11 lbs to go to hit my goal!

I am sick and tired of wallowing in the misery that I have created! It's time for an attitude adjustment or an ass kickin'...whatever works!

I have a few good prospects for jobs. I am hopeful that when the time is right, the right position will open up for me. I have to believe there is a reason it hasn't happened yet and I'm pretty sure I know what the reason is...my kids.

The intention of me quitting my job in the first place was to be able to concentrate on the kids. The summer was fairly uneventful, just busy. Now that school has started again, it's been kicked up a notch or two and I know this is where I need to be right now. The frustration lies with knowing that I also need to contribute to our family's financial situation...what a position to be in! Kids...job...kids...job...what to do? Again, I have to believe that where I am right now is where I am supposed to be and that when it's the right time, the right job will be available to me.

So, I am staying positive, doing my chakra cleansing, reading "The Secret", and trying to apply all the tools I have learned into my life right now. The Universe is listening and will bring me what I need...yes it's true, it will happen.

I had my 8 month follow up with my WLS doctor on Tuesday. He had nothing but good things to say about my progress. After we talked for a while and I told him why I thought I should have reached my goal by now he told me to quit being so hard on myself! Wow, that's one I've never heard before...LOL! He says I should be able to hit my goal by my year mark (I plan to hit it before then, even though the weight loss has slowed down).

This WL journey has not been easy and is still not easy. I am and always have been a stress and emotional eater. Since I am always stressed (or so it seems), I always want to eat and learning how to address the real issues is tough. I also crave sweets...it seems my sweet tooth has not magically disappeared so I have to be careful about making smart food choices. Sometimes I do and sometimes I don't and I do my best not to beat myself up over the bad choices.

There is just so much going on in my head these days and I am really working on focusing on what is most important...that's all I can do. Life goes on whether I am happy or sad and I have to choose to be happy each day or I just make myself more miserable.

Love to you all...