PMS...

88 lbs lost; 22 lbs to go to hit my goal...

If you are wondering about the subject of my blog today let me explain. In November 2007 I had a procedure done called an Endometrial Ablation. My periods were so heavy and uncomfortable since having my tubes tied in 2003 that my Dr. and I decided this procedure would be a good thing for me. There is over a 90% chance that your monthly periods will stop all together; a 70% chance they will be greatly reduced...lighter and lasting fewer days.

It's a simple procedure although they do put you under anesthesia; it only lasts a few minutes. They basically go in and "zap" the lining of the uterus so that it sloughs off.

I have been lucky that since the procedure was done I have not had a period...not a single one; which is a blessing. What really sucks is that I still seem to get most of the symptoms of PMS...irritability, a little swelling and tenderness, but mostly awful mood swings and I'm very emotional! :-(

I have been so emotional and irritable the past few days. All I want to do is cry! I sit and think about all the things I do wrong on a daily basis (I do this alot anyway but it's worse during PMS...lol)! I feel worthless and my thoughts are all over the place! I don't sleep well because my brain won't shut down...it just goes in circles; around and around with all these stupid thoughts! It's so tiring and I spend alot of unproductive time dwelling on these idiotic thoughts! When I get like this I tend to eat more (food as comfort) and try as I might to stay away from the "bad" foods...sometimes I make bad choices and then that pushes me further into depression with thoughts of how I am "screwing up my weight loss"...*sigh*.

So...there you have it...my inner most embarrassing thoughts (although they are sometimes far worse than I mention here but I can't give up ALL my secrets)! I really try to stay positive and keep busy (I'm always busy it seems with the kids and their activities) but these yucky thoughts still creep in and sometimes they take over!

On top of that I have been extremely tired the past little bit. My Dr.'s office called today to tell me that the lab work I had done a few weeks ago shows that my Iron is still low...a good indication of why I am so tired. I have been taking an Iron supplement for a few months but apparently I need to bump it up a bit to get my Iron over 50. It's currently at 43.

This isn't a very fun post and for that I apologize. I just feel the need to put it down in words today. Thanks for listening!